Friday, April 7, 2017

The Pony and the Pritzker Prize Winner

The drive from Mexico City to Puebla takes about an hour and a half, in decent traffic. I was on my way to visit the International Museum of the Baroque and the opening of Clay Between Two Seas from Baghdad to Puebla, the third stop on a tour that included the Franz Mayer Museum (Mexico City) and the Crow Collection of Asian Art (Dallas, Texas).

I’d noticed the dust a breakfast: a thin layer of dust covered the table where I ate. I’m sure it settled just a few moments before I sat down. On the drive, up and over the mountains between Mexico City and Puebla we met this dust again. The country side looks unseasonable dry, I think, it should be glossy and green. Spring. The grasses and trees stood thirsty and parched. 

We motor along, and I puzzle at the curiosities along the way: the “well stations” every few miles: at one I see a woman washing her hair; the immensity of village after village, little black water tanks on the top of each home: can that possibly be enough water for a family? I ponder; the absence of mountain retreats or trail heads.

Just inside of the toll booth as we near Puebla amid the thousands of homes, dry and dusty, a tall skyscraper stands mid-construction: an anomaly and a contrast to the tired landscape around it. This tower is in the middle of nowhere. The contrasts of Puebla begin to give themselves away.

Before we reach the brand-new Hilton Garden Hotel just across from the International Museum of the Baroque I see at least six new towers in Puebla City (the new section of a very old town dating to 1520) that have popped up like beanstalks since my visit one year ago. The architecture, perhaps inspired by the verve of Pritzker Prize winner Toyo Ito’s masterpiece at the Museum of the Baroque is whimsical and nervy: the lines of the building bulging out on unexpected floors.

The familiar is nearby, though: off in the distance through a curtain of dust I can barely see El Popo the guardian volcano of these sacred lands. I see the silhouette of the church at the top of the pyramid in Cholula. I see the markings of the old downtown, and debate the conveniences of a new American hotel versus the charm of the colonial city.

Just before the opening Emilia and I meet our driver in the porte cochere of the hotel to cross the ten-lane highway to the undulating museum just on the other side. As I situated dress and coat and closed the door, I look up and see an old Mexican farmer walking across the valet lane, pulling a Shetland pony. They hustled against a backdrop of traffic and the hike/bike lanes (Puebla innovation) weaving in and around the highway. I watched the shimmer of the horse’s yellow mane and tale and wondered out loud “where could they possibly be going?”. The city changes but some old horses still have to get home.

A few minutes later we arrived to a reception of dozens of media: reporters and photographers, TV and cameramen. Unexpectedly I was ushered to stand with the giants of this project: the Mayor, the Governor’s wife, the Ministers of Education, Culture and Tourism, a few other luminaries and my dear friends the Museum Director and the Exhibition Curator. While I feigned attention through several speeches in Spanish (must learn Spanish immediately) I nervously wrote a speech in my head just in case I should be called to the podium to speak. Curiosity, Compassion and Companions…Curiosity, Compassion…Companions. My mnemonic device only made trying to remember the order and intention harder. I took some deep, mindful breaths, re-positioned my hands and listened fervently for my name in Spanish. It did not come.

Next, I found myself standing at a white ribbon, with scissors in my hand cutting open the entrance to the exhibition. I love Mexican ceremony. We then followed the curator and at the case with the loan objects from the Crow Collection I had my day in the sun: the curator and the Minister of Culture asked me to share our role in the project. Flash bulbs popping, cameras going, the buzz of reporters wanting one more photograph of these leaders –fortunately my spontaneous speech writing paid off, and the Crow Collection objects lit a little light for these museum goers in Puebla.


Hours later after the festivities came to a close and I encountered a meaningful lesson from my friend and the Ambassador (also the new Director of the Baroque: Ambassador Jorge Alberto Lozoya), I looked out at the night lights of Puebla from the fourteenth floor of the hotel. I looked at my dress and heels, vintage clutch and necklace sitting on the desk in the crisp room—fragrant with the scent of recent and fast construction. 

I thought about the Shetland pony and wondered which light in this long dark landscape of glowing lights must mark his little stable—his home at least for a little while.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

The Fierce Urgency of Now

It’s evening in Mexico City and I am on a mission. Since my first visit I’ve had many happy returns to Mexico. I’ve cherished the friendships with our board members from Mexico and the treasured friends I’ve come to love along the way.

I am the Director of an Asian Art Museum so you may ask, 

Why Mexico? Why now?

It took me a few years to figure this out, but this museum where I work, The Crow Collection of Asian Art is a place where yes, art is exhibited and visitors visit, but this museum is also a place where compassion happens everyday. 

We’re up to a lot more than art.

Back in August when I was here with a small business delegation hosted by the Mayors of Dallas / Fort Worth, Dallas Mayor Michael Rawlings led one of the press conferences with the news of our then upcoming exhibition Clay Between Two Seas: From the Abbasid Courts to Puebla de los Angeles. He stated clearly and compassionately: “we are building bridges, not walls”.

A few hours later a reporter from Dallas called and asked me about his quote. I elaborated on the important work of creating new access points for understanding Mexico’s vital role in history: a convener of knowledge and innovations from across the globe. Asia has been in the dialogues of Mexico’s history for hundreds of years. And these stories, relayed by reporters in 2017 and printed in the same papers with declarations about a wall become more critical than ever.

Since our first exhibition exploring Asia in Mexico in 2002 (exquisite ivories commissioned from China for New Spain) our museum has been committed to the international story of Asia. Asia is not a place bound by borders: Asia is in the world and of the world: offering a vital provenance to world trade and international dialogues. Asia “happened” to the world because of open borders, access, entrepreneurial, curious and willing explorers.

I am a curious and willing explorer. And I am back in Mexico looking for Asia. Tomorrow we will celebrate the opening of Clay Between Two Seas with our partner museum the totally fabulous International Museum of the Baroque led by the incomparable Ambassador Jorge Alberto Lozoya.

We will celebrate, and I will begin a new exploration: for the next exhibition honoring Asia’s rich history in Mexico. Each person I meet this week, each collection I learn about, each image that is sent to me and each story that is shared is a bridge. A bridge representing compassion in action: sharing content and cultural histories IS compassion in action.


Tomorrow Ambassador Lozoya and I will begin a new story. And in a couple of years we will bring it back to Dallas: a vibrant international city with a beautiful population that is 42% Hispanic and home to over 350,000 Asian-Americans. 

And this new story becomes a story that belongs to everyone. And every person who visits this future exhibition I can’t even begin to imagine yet becomes a bridge to greater cultural understanding and more compassion in the world. And the time is now. 

“We are now faced with the fact that tomorrow is today. We are confronted with the fierce urgency of now. In this unfolding conundrum of life and history, there "is" such a thing as being too late. This is no time for apathy or complacency. This is a time for vigorous and postive action.”


Martin Luther King, Jr. 

Saturday, April 1, 2017

What the Heart Knows

I am sitting window-side in Albuquerque this morning. Miss Sandia wears a fashionable hat of thick, cold clouds, a peppering of snow on her dark cloak. 

I can't see Santa Fe: Mother Nature has her now. dressing her up for the afternoon views. 

Tea steeps, and I breathe deeply. Grateful for the times I've spent here and the times I will spend here. 

Today, an Ayurveda Vastu Shastra workshop waits for me: a welcome retreat on day 32 of a 100-day Mindful Eating Practice: Thirty-two days ago I tried something new: a practice of studying intention and desire with a promise to not have gluten, coffee, sugar, dairy and alcohol. I am curious about how a person sets a plan, creates a different future, and makes it happen. I am a student of my own life.

Yesterday I met an Ayurvedic practicioner for a consultation. Her assessment was sobering--it's one thing to design your own 100 day elimination diet: it's another to have a conversation with an expert about what your body is really up to when someone listens intuitively to your pulse. I have a long way to go. 

She gave me a wellness prescription of eight or so new practices and she framed this work in terms of longevity. Life expectancy for women in America in 2017 is 93. Given this awakening news, how do you design what your health and quality of life look like 47 years from now? Carefully. Joyfully. Lovingly. Organically.

Following the consultation I stood, swimming a bit in the content of what we know about our own systems written in the Vedas, the oldest sacred texts scribed between 1700 and 150 B.C. Veda is a Sanskrit word for knowledge or wisdom, derived from the root "to know". The Vedas originated in India and are the roots the Sanskrit language and of Hinduism. It's all there: this truly is the wisdom of the ages. 

This practicioner needs not an MRI, a CT scan or a blood test: she looked into my eyes, listened to the rhythms and sounds of my pulse and studied the landscape of my tongue. I am so awed how my life, so beautifully intertwined with my role leading a museum with a collection of Japanese, Chinese, Indian and Southeast Asian Art has led me on this journey back to the source: access to wisdom for living with health and happiness. What more do we need? 

There is a beautiful minimalism and simplicity in this work when you get curious enough to look at a different future.

I read this week in Leaves Falling Gently by Susan Bauer Wu about the vitality that comes from stopping. She writes about the power in stopping: cultivating a moment of silence each day and looking "in" for the existence of "there": listening to the pulse and the rhythms of the heart, seeing the light in my own eyes and the power of a tongue that speaks.

I am stopping this morning at breakfast sitting with a mountain: thirty-two days in a new future that may last for a very long time.

Sunday, March 5, 2017

The Things We See When We Look

I am studying the no: a simple two-letter word easy to learn at two yet perhaps the hardest to say at forty-something.

I exist in a culture of yes: the Dallas Arts District alone represents over a billion dollars worth of infrastructure in just the last few years: Dallas is a city of yes, we can. This luxurious ether of possibility seeps into my days: openings and receptions, dinners and galas. Eighteen years later and a chardonnay at the entrance to an art exhibition became the practice.

A week ago I declared a new chapter for myself by creating a 100-day period of mindful re-construction of "me" down to the cellular level. I am "going dark" as they say in the theater world: studying how to replace desire with giving and noise with quiet.

I'm looking for ways to create a balance between the silence of emptiness and the glorious symphony of creating something new. Somewhere in this work is that little word: "no".

Matthew 5:37: But let your 'Yes' be 'Yes' and your "No', 'No'.

My curriculum is the traditional elimination diet, and my textbook is me. Building new practices of "no" when it comes to gluten, dairy, sugar, caffeine and alcohol is making a clearing for a new meadow of "yeses": lower blood pressure, less inflammation, more clarity in thinking and more energy. Maybe elimination diet is the wrong word.

The etymology of eliminate:1560s, from L. eliminatus, pp. of eliminare "thrust out of doors, expel," from ex limine "off the threshold," from ex "off, out" + limine, abl. of limen "threshold." Used literally at first; sense of "exclude" first attested 1714; sense of "expel waste from the body" is c.1795. 

As I study the antonyms I see words like "begin", "give birth", "welcome" and "accept". By eliminating these five things (things I think I love) I am ratifying a different future for myself. And this kind of mindfulness, to change a future and be peaceful in the process is teaching me just how beautifully the mind works when paired with intention.

It hasn't been easy, but it has been joyous. In the first few days I faced the toughest challenge with a Members' Preview launching a new exhibition followed by a splendid dinner at one of Dallas' best restaurants. I started with a lesson from the late Princess Diana: she often ate a small healthy meal before going out to formal dinners in the evening.

Just before the opening, I drank a frothy, earthy Mark Hyman shake while I worked on my remarks. At the reception, I said "no" to the plump Chinese dumplings and "yes" to a sparkling water, savoring the moment of seeing the will in my will power.

Following the talk we ventured to the restaurant and I stayed present with my intentions and my goals: I delegated the wine selection and ordered a sumptuous tea: savoring the hospitality that comes with tea: cup, saucer, tea bag, tea pot and kind companion offering to pour. I paused to admire the ritual, so different in gesture from the pour of a bold cab.

I watched as the server brought little ellipses of butter to each bread plate at our left. Intention, Intention I murmured in my head, present in both my want of the butter, dappled with rose-colored Himalayan sea salt and my want for health and a future I empower. I studied the butter's glossy surface and salt crystals, the shimmer of wine in the wine glasses around me, the laughter of a room wearing a cloak of cocktails.

I worked my "no" muscle again when the cadence of dessert items flowed from the server's mouth. "Gibberish to me" I thought: I'm taking myself on, yes, water is a beautiful thing. I drank it slowly sending Hydrogen and Oxygen to every cell.

It was a different kind of evening for me: calm and relaxed, sitting with my "beautiful monsters" as Tsoknyi Rinpoche taught me at a workshop at the Omega Institute. I soaked up the conversations with our donors, our visiting artists and new friends. I fell asleep easily and was back at the office early the next morning, awake, alive and clear headed: cells happy.

With this practice of making a decision: when a "no" is a no and "yes" is a yes, something changes in my being. I am freed from the anxiety of wanting. No is a no and yes is a yes. I'm employing little mantras to remind me of my new "yes"

For well being: to every cell

For finding beauty in unexpected places: little alleluias everywhere

W
hen I feel the liminal response to a tray of champagne flutes: be like a monk. 

Be like a monk: minimalist, sensible, modest and practical. I am working to replace desire with acceptance, worry with peace and judgment with love.

The no is my threshold, the yes is my sanctuary.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

A Chapter of Mindful Intention: Under Construction

I woke up today in a new future. I've been planning this day, March 1st for almost a month. I've been working up to this day, March 1st for years.

Last fall the museum started looking at 2017 as a year of quiet: I called it a cocoon phase: dark, quiet and under construction.

The museum is close to announcing the plans for our physical transformation and construction: a sizable expansion, a re-brand and a launch as a museum in the public trust. I didn't realize as all of these conversations evolved that I, too am preparing for my own cocoon phase: I, too, am going under construction.

I've been working on myself for a few years now with the wake-up call of a diagnosis of thyroid cancer six years ago and remission twelve months later. I've learned that well being is a journey: moments of incredible focus and intention, moments of learning and leaving,  moments of straying and distraction. Today I woke up in a new moment. 

At the museum we've been studying existence: getting rigorous about how the work of work happens: promises and commitments and tracking it in places beyond the vast expanse of the brain. A new moment exists today and today is different from yesterday. Today is day one of one-hundred days. For the next one-hundred days I will engage in a practice of mindful eating in an elimination diet: no sugar, no caffeine (save for one green tea daily), no dairy, no gluten and: no alcohol. 

This Chapter of Mindful Intention as I am calling it includes creating new behaviors in joy, simplicity and minimalism. I will focus on who I am becoming in this future: a person who is clearer about the world and all I am to be in my being here. I will feel better:  I will give away 100 things and document them via social media. I will work hard and pursue happiness. I will strengthen my capacity for compassion. I will stay focused and intentional. 

As for well being I am creating a me that will flourish in 

lower blood pressure 
more fitness and exercise 
more energy 
less inflammation 
more capacity for yoga 
more clarity in purpose and thinking 

Writing this puts it all into existence: me in this future of health and well being: leading in contemplative work and heading up an art museum that celebrates the compassion that happens when art meets healing. I am my own best experiment, and I am taking myself on to be someone who is stronger, wiser ready for the good work ahead of us. Pardon my dust and please hold me to account every day.